Lately, I have been really missing my CBC girls - my old group of girlfriends from high school. Which is so weird to me, because I haven't seen hardly any of them for 9, almost 10 years. Occasionally I get to see one or two as they drive through or come to visit the other CBC girl who moved to Denver. But I never even see her! It's crazy!
I've made many a friend in my short life - moving every so often, it kinda builds this ability to make friends easily. Or so I thought. That lasted until college. In high school, my girls automatically loved on me, accepted me for all the weirdness I was. I invaded their group of friends who had grown up together, and somehow I became one of theirs. Of the 9 (10?) of us, there was a WIDE range of personalities - from the Olympic athlete don't get in my way Erin, to the uber sweet and loving Lori to the go getter, hurt nobody Kira. Also included was the bright and vibrant Tess, and total California girl Liz, who now lives in Denver! Somehow ... somehow these personalities meshed into a senior year full of fun, laughter and a million memories that came to a screeching halt for me when they invaded my home the morning I left for college withloads of hugs and goodbyes.
I went to college. The world was now tainted. With super hot boys, alcohol, and people who were no where close to my CBC girls. Other females lied and manipulated and stole boyfriends. In the adult world, those friends were friends who were only friends when they wanted something. Like teachers who didnt want to work, but rather wanted to mooch off the efforts of a dedicated and passionate colleague.
And now. I'm a mommy. And I have met SO many wonderful mommy friends. But its so hard to keep my mouth shut and eyebrows unraised and face expressionless as they let their childs slap others or grab toys away without a single blink. I miss my deep, talk about anything friendships I had with my girls.
What's funny about that is that when I've seen Liz or Erin or Lori in the past few years - its obvious we have changed and grown into adults with our own personalities. But that comfort level is still there. I still cant wait to see them when I go to San Diego (HOLLA!) for my reunion next summer. My skin itches to hug them and see how they've grown and the beautiful people who are now their family members or significant others. How I would love to have them out in Denver so we could go on CBC adventures in the Colorado wilderness together!
My CBC girls - if you are reading ;) - I am not the best keep in toucher, but know I think about you tons and wish I could do cocktails and lunches with you. I'm so proud of the people you have turned into - you are the most loving, kind hearted people I know and I am so blessed to have been adopted by you 10 years ago. I love you dearly and can't wait to see you again!
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I am so glad that we will not only be college friends, but mommy friends in a mere SEVEN WEEKS!! How amazing is that? And you can call me anytime.
Oh I am crying! I feel the exact same way!! I really think that it is so beautiful that a group of 10 girls who were so different were so close! There just isn't very much like it in the world and I love that I am a CBC girl!
I have had many people ask over the years where I met Liz or Tess or Lori or any number of you cBc girls and they are always shocked when I respond with middle school or high school and generally respond with wow, I'm not friends with anyone from high school anymore.
The true beauty in our group is even after all the years and miles and changes when we get together it's like nothing has happened and we are right back in our spot by the band room ;) (yeah we were so cool!)
Oh and Ari, I'm pretty sure I will be in Denver in February so we'll have to get together :)
I love that when we got together in Denver a couple of months ago we fell right back into comfort with ease. Those friendships are the best (especially for those of us who aren't the best long distance communicators, myself definately included in that category with you!!!)
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