Woe is Me.

UGH! I am so sick of this pity party attitude everyone has going on nowadays. Seriously? Or should I say "Seriousry?" Come on! I am oh so guilty of it, too ... but I'm also very aware of when I'm doing it ...

For example ... Obama. I'm so tired of hearing about this "mess" he inherited. Good for that judge who publicly disagreed! It is, in my opinion, out of line to imply judgement on someone (the supreme court) on national television. Good grief. And to continue whining about the Republican party and all that he has inherited? Shut UP! Mr. President ... YOU wanted this position ... YOU know what you were walking into ... now do you damn job. I relate it to teaching. I get a class of 3rd grade students, 90% of which are not on grade level. Do I sit there for a year and whine about how low they are? Not a freaking chance (except to my mom) ... instead I accept I have a challenge and make a plan to beat it. And guess what? Less than 10 percent of my students left my room at below grade level. One year, anyway. 

Want another one? "I'm going to be a single mom" . Yeah? AND? Being a mom is hard regardless of whether you're married or not, or who you're married to. If you didn't want to consider being a single mom as an option, well ... then choose celibacy. Duh. I can say this, because I was in those shoes in 2007 ... and ya know what? I dealt with it, and I found strength in my friends and family. And I made a plan to make it work. In my opinion, YOU created your situation, now create a plan to make the best of it and stop your freaking whining. 

I'm on a chat board. And ya know what I see? Moms whining about how much WIC sucks. Well ... then quit spending your damn paycheck on an internet bill and buy your own food. FOr crying out loud. Nate and I are by no means in a "good" financial situation, but it's better than a lot of people's these days. Did I ever complain about not having what I wanted? Sometimes. but it was more hoping for a day that when we could. And I still do. And ya know what? Every day I contemplate and plan for a way that we can, rather than sitting on a lazy butt and whining. 

I am mooooody. moody moody moody. Maybe I need some of that B6 my mom was telling me about. So I'll stop whining about my moodiness. That is all. 

My Dad

Have you ever had it? Ugh *shudder* ... that feeling when you just know something bad has happened? Or a dream where someone is hurt or dies and you wake up feeling as though it has really happened? I HATE IT! I think i may have some form of mild anxiety issues. I'm not making light I really do ...

It's 12:40 a.m. . I originally 'stayed up' til 830 working on a sewing project. I tried to sleep but couldn't. SO ... I played on my computer for a bit :) I finally went back to bed around 1130. I was nearly asleep, and BAM ... that feeling. In my head was a song playing ... a song I haven't thought about since my wedding day ... the song my papa and I danced to ... Faith Hill's "There You'll Be" ... I'm not sure if thats the real title, but it's what I call it. And I started BAWLING. Yep ... out of nowhere ... 

It's that feeling where you want to call your parents at 1230am just to make sure everything's okay and to say you love them more than they'll ever know. Its the kind of feeling where you get out of your bed at 1230 to blog about how much you love your dad. 

My dad. That guy. He drives me NUTS! I was on the phone with my mom today and she said he was golfing in Montrose in the snow. My reply? Well then he's an idiot. Sometimes I think that, ,but moreover, he's just really, really passionate about whatever he's into at the moment. So much so that he leaves his police car in "drive" when he jumps out to help a woman being hit by her husband. Silly guy. 

He used to embarrass us SO bad. Okay, he still does. Singing "That's Amore!" loud enough for the entire Borders bookstore to hear, oblivious (or not) to the stares while he belts out the lyrics as he listens. Or singing "oom chucka chucka, oom chucka chee, jumping up and down like a big bunny!" as he chicken necks his way through Henry's Farmers Market. 

I cannot tell you the number of times my mother's bright red face was shaking back and forth as she attempted to escape the embarrassment of my father's "walking farts" through walmart. WHO DOES THAT?!! 

My dad. When I got married, my biggest look for was a man who would be a great dad, like mine was and still is. Nate and dad are by no means alike, except for the fact they have their babies as their number one (babies = wife/kids). Except for the occasional round of golf :) 

My favorite memories of dad time include ... taking us to the rolly slide in Japan ... bouncing us on his legs and making up ridiculous "songs" ... "aaaah!" as his hand hits our cheek (in a poking way, not a slap!) ... wiffle softball in the garden in Japan ... watching him type type type late hours in the night when he went back to school ... mom making us watch an evening news show, making us guess "who's hand is that?!" as dad did the weather forecast ... watching him coach brady in little league baseball ... taking us to the airshows and climbing in the display aircrafts ...  watching him get "so handsome" in his dress blues, taking mom to the Marine Corps Ball ... and of course, the nightly observations of him lovingly stirring the sweet tea pitcher ...

more recently ... walking me down the aisle ... (obviously) my dad/daughter dance ... and the very best of all ... watching him hold my baby girl for the first time ... not so delicately, as if he's never held a baby before... with raised and furrowed eyebrows claiming "Yep, she's a pretty one" ... and 8 months later watching him play with her at the park ... 

Those are just a few memories of my dad that will always be treasured ... and many more I'm sure, cuz I know he really is okay. He has to be! That's my dad! It's funny how regardless of how old you get, "thats my dad" always has such special meaning. 

"There You'll Be"

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

[Chorus:]
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

[Repeat chorus]

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

[Chorus:]
In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
There you'll be 

sorry

Sorry! The formatting got screwed up ... the top is the "after" the bottom is the "before" :) 

My latest project

 Before 

SO! I have to share ... ever since I started staying home with D, I've had an increased interest in this "domestic" crap that my mom always did. Sewing, baking, crafting, etc. Who has time for that?! ME :) At least today I did. 

We're moving into our new home this weekend and I really just want things to start looking 

GOOD. SO ... I started making a "wish list".

After! 

 I knew that a new kitchen table is unrealistic so I started looking into other options. Right now I have a bar height table that I LOVE. Except for the stained microfiber cushions. So what did I do? Hmmm.  

I spent 2 hours in Joanne's :) I finally spent about 10 bucks on new upholstery fabric, and might I add that it's super sexy! WE borrowed a staple gun from a friend and guess what? It's like a brand new kitchen table. I dont have the 

cushions screwed in yet but I have pictures of the cushions sitting on the chairs in the wrong direction :) 

Next project : upholstering a wood bench/coat rack I bought for a dollar at a yardsale :) 

A big sister

Is what Danika will be! We are expecting our second child on August 28, 2010! We are so super excited about our new little baby joining our family. Its going much faster than it did with Danika - I'm 7 weeks today - still super early but getting closer and closer to the end of the first trimester. 

Most of you know my first pregnancy ended in a very sad miscarriage back in 2007. Originally I wanted to wait until the 2nd trimester to share our news, but we figure - the people we share our news with love our daughter and will love this little baby, too - and will cry with us if something goes wrong, or celebrate when she/he arrives. 

We got to see and hear the little heartbeat on January 5! The ultrasound tech kept referring to it as the flicker - so! We nicknamed the little nudge a little flicker :) 

Once again the morning sickness has loyally appeared ... currently my diet consists of crackers and cheese, and rootbeer floats. Its funny how with my morning sickness with Danika, it was awful and people kept telling me "its worth it!". Yep. I wanted to vomit down their throat. Now, after seeing and feeling the love a mommy feels, it makes the queasiness and vomitting so, so, so worth it - it puts it all in perspective. 

It makes me sad that my time with just me and Danika is coming to an end, but I just know she will be a fabulous sister, kinda like me :)